I love my son

but there are times when I don't like him very much, like today. We are in the middle of a snowstorm and he just pitched a fit because I wouldn't go out to buy him snow pants (my jeans will get wet and my legs will be cold!). So, in his eyes i am the worst mother in the whole world.

Hitting the "wall"

yikes, Kristin and I spent (mostly Kristin, what a worker!) several hours cleaning Luis's room yesterday and I am exhausted! bags and bags of stuff for Goodwill and just trash, I mean, how much stuff can a 10 year old have? a LOT! I get so out of breath with such little effort that there is no way in hell I would have been able to do this at all, so Kristin, you are amazing and I thank you so much! It started with Christine helping me move the turtle and the fish down to the rec room, much better place and I will say that the room is starting to shape up. Once again I am reminded how blessed I am to have such good friends. Think about your friends and if you get a chance, tell them thank you, there is nothing like a good friend. And of course I know that Kristin has been wanting to get at Luis's room for the longest time and I was glad to oblige! So Luis has a clean room that is mostly clutter free, adorned with many many sports posters (of course!) and there are three exhausted women who have accomplished the impossible! Again I say there is no way I would have been able to do this without them so Christine and Kristin a big hug and a thank you!!!

how refreshing to write a whole entry without mentioning chemo, symptoms, etc etc. it gets boring after a while, you know?

still feeling good!

amazing! Yesterday I was full of energy, just love that decadron. Today a little more pain but still have enough energy to tackle Luis's room. So that is what my friend and I are going to do. Cleaning a 10 year old boy's bedroom, fate worse than death if you ask me, but it's got to be done!

Chemo, Round 3

Started my third round of chemo today, I am feeling pretty good, much better than I did this weekend where I spent most of my time hugging the porcelain. Of course the worry is that I am obstructed, but I think it was just a stomach virus because Luis woke up puking this morning and it has been making the rounds at school. So, they took more blood and I haven't gotten any phone calls yet so I am assuming that I am in the clear. I am not yellow which is a good sign. I am working on the Decadron high, which unfortunately makes me think I have more energy than I really have, so I get overtired because I do too much like an idiot. Oh well, that high will be over soon and I will be feeling like crap for a couple of weeks.
I am scheduled for a CT scan in 3 weeks to see how I am progressing, to see if all this puking, radiation, beads, etc has made any difference. Let's hope so.

a sonic day

I don't know why, and I am not going to question, but for some reason I had a hankering for a Sonic Burger! My appetite of late has not been good at all, so for me to have a taste for anything is nothing short of amazing. So, I called my friend Christine and we went to the local Sonic Burger. It was just as good as I wanted it to be! I didn't make it through the whole thing but I did a respectable job at eating about 3/4 of a double cheese. Maybe this time the scale will not be so harsh. I don't know, sometimes you just need to have grease I guess!

I am fine, just exhausted

Even standing for a brief period of time makes me lightheaded and out of breath, I'm no more anemic than usual, but oh my word so so fatigued. It's a side effect from all the radiation of the sirspheres, so I hope they are doing some magic!

Gratitude

I am grateful for so many things, I give thanks everyday that I live where I live, have the family I do and am blessed with so many friends. I have been touched lately at how gracious my friends have been with my son, encouraging him to come to games with them, letting him spend the day or have dinner, giving him a semblance of a normal life. While I love the fact that he wants to spend time with me, I also know that he needs his friends and all those activities that boys like to do. So, to John, Christine, Rob and Sue, thank you from the bottom of my heart.

PS, I don't know if you said anything to him, but I finally got him to take a shower tonight, wahoo!