Happy Birthday! Happy Birthday! Happy Birthday!

Today in our family we celebrate 3 birthdays in one day! So, Happy Birthday to Mark, Arthur, and Patrick were all born on the same day in june. Big family dinner at Mom and Dad's. I will be there in spirit, of course.

A great big THANK YOU to my Aunt Jessie and Cousin Ed for the yummy chocolates! Lindt sent by FEDEX no less! I love candy that comes with instructions inside, lol.

Sunday

The way I look at things, Hospice isn't a matter of dying but a matter of controlling my life as long as I can. I am at peace, more so now than I have been in a long while. Stopping chemo was a personal choice but one that I am at peace with. I have 24 hour care because I am pretty much stuck to my bed or a wheel chair. especially since I sprained my ankle trying to go to the bathroom by myself! My pain is tolerable and they provide me with anything I need. The hardest part was realizing that I could no longer care for my son, so he is now living with my sister (his guardian). Fortunately she just lives down the street and I see him almost every day. She has been an absolute godsend, has have my other relatives, friends and neighbors, but Peggy is special and I thank God everyday for having her as my ally, my rock, my sister, my caregiver and my good companion.
I am having problems lately with my short term memory, I will be mid sentence and stop, not remembering what the heck I was talking about. It is very frustrating for someone who is as talkative as I am!
That's it for now, I find that I get very tired easily so I don't stay on the computer too long. I'll see you next time, in the meantime keep me in your prayers

The latest

Well, it's been quite a while, but a lot has been happening, so I will try to summarize. I had my transfusion and then got pretty sick over the weekend. Went to the Emergency room and found out my blood count was down to 16. I was admitted to the hospital and given multiple transfusions. Unfortunately no one could find out a cause of the bleeding. After I was discharged they found that my ammonia level was very high then still higher a week later. The bottom line is that there is nothing more that can be done and my liver has shut down. So, no more chemo, no more treatments. A feww days later I became extremely ill and Hospice was called in. Right now I am comfortable and plan to remain so. Will I die tonight? maybe, maybe not for months. The plan is to keep me as comfortable as possible. As I get sicker my posts will get fewer but my sister Peggy will keep you all updated.
I am ok with this, I have asked God to give me strength as I continue down His path. So, meanwhile keep me in your prayers and I will keep you all in mine. God bless