Sunday

The way I look at things, Hospice isn't a matter of dying but a matter of controlling my life as long as I can. I am at peace, more so now than I have been in a long while. Stopping chemo was a personal choice but one that I am at peace with. I have 24 hour care because I am pretty much stuck to my bed or a wheel chair. especially since I sprained my ankle trying to go to the bathroom by myself! My pain is tolerable and they provide me with anything I need. The hardest part was realizing that I could no longer care for my son, so he is now living with my sister (his guardian). Fortunately she just lives down the street and I see him almost every day. She has been an absolute godsend, has have my other relatives, friends and neighbors, but Peggy is special and I thank God everyday for having her as my ally, my rock, my sister, my caregiver and my good companion.
I am having problems lately with my short term memory, I will be mid sentence and stop, not remembering what the heck I was talking about. It is very frustrating for someone who is as talkative as I am!
That's it for now, I find that I get very tired easily so I don't stay on the computer too long. I'll see you next time, in the meantime keep me in your prayers